So lesson one learned on staying well, seek help when you need it. I sought it eventually and it was there. Thanks to my friends who dragged me out of bed physically and mentally. I had a wonderful day today. I began the day with some eft chakra cleaning and it just snapped me out of it, followed by some vigorous house cleaning and then a bbq for my daughter and her friends. So I am learning to get by with a little help from my friends finally. Maybe I really can stay well.