Over the last week I have just let go a little bit more than normal. Now I feel the fear of the having to cling on tight to reality again. Sometimes I can over think it all. I know I can be in my head to much or in my body too much and then I wish I could find the balance, equilibrium. When will I find it? Is it something that I have to work at or is it something that will just appear? I have not achieved flow this last few days as i was trying to create a soft landing for going back to work but then it hit me, whose voice was i listening to mine or someone else and it was not mine. I killed my voice again. What was my voice saying to me before I killed it? I think is I shall have to ask myself while I redefine reality for myself. I would like my reality to be more fun, less anxiety and a whole heap less of jealousy and irritation. I would like to be my authentic self - where ever she is hiding would she please show herself.